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Le Life in Lincoln

2011-11-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

In correspondence to one of my besties, Sherlyn Tan's post about her new life in Kentucky, I think I have the obligation to post a brief report about mine in Nebraska too. haha

The culture shock and emotional period was ended by the friendly community from home. Other than the Malaysians, the Americans, Koreans, , Brazilian, Vietnamese and Chinese that I have met taught me a lot of useful life skills to survive and live happily here. Not wanting to limit myself in the Malaysian circle, I made effort to blend into the community in dorm and in classes. Then I found out that the key to mix around in this place is to make the first move with thick face. The friendliness of Americans is limited to the platitudes. It is hard for me to have deep conversation with them I don't know why. I realized that they are happy as long as I listen and show an impressive face. No matter it is useful comment, plain personal experience or nonsense, you must say something in class to get attention.

The American food in general tastes either sweet, salty or like cinnamon. You can find cinnamon in cookies, pasta, oatmeal, yada yada... I am anti cinnamon after having an instant apple cinnamon oatmeal drink. Oh btw, have anyone heard of chai tea and eggnog? The earlier is one of the most common drinks in US, the latter is the popular drinks for winter celebrations such as thanksgiving, Christmas, and new year. I was so eager to try them when I got to know them, but I decided not to have so much curiosity over new things in here. Same goes for pumpkin cake/ tart/ drinks/ ice cream. They like to spice up food of drinks of pumpkin and I am not a big fan of the spicy taste.

Online shopping is super efficient and convenient here. I think that is the way they make up for the short operating hours of the shops here. You can get everything you want from the stores in cyber world and they will send it to your doorstep. If you are desperate for a pen but too lazy to walk out from your room, you can even order it online. Thats how crazy the service is. The downside is there are too many sales going on all the time and it is just hard to stop myself from squandering money!

The last thing I want to talk about is the night life. The legal age for alcohol consumption in most of the states is 21. The underage kids, like me, have never touched alcohol drinks in their life or are doing it secretly at home. Well, theres nothing much to do at night, especially we are in a small farm state. There's a saying among the Malaysian students in US that goes like 'if we were to have a drinking competition for Malaysians in US, the fellas from Lincoln will kick everybody else's ass'. Indeed I have seen some very good drinkers in Lincoln. But it is understood since drinking seems to be the only activity to spend time and alcohol drinks are cheap here. =D

This is only my fifth month here, and there are lot more for me to explore (although I can't wait to go home). I will update here when I have the time and mood to (don't hit me :p).

Farm Tour

2011-10-03T03:32:00.002+08:00

The International Student Fellowship (ISF) organized a farm trip to a farm in Hooper and a pumpkin patch in Oakland, NE. Its purpose was basically to kill our weekend boredom.

We went to the farm to see the equipment they used on a farm and learn about how corn and soy beans are harvested in Nebraska. I got to see how soy bean (yellow beans) plants look like. Besides, they also provided a sack lunch for us.

After a looooong while being in the farm, we finally left for pumpkin patch in Oakland. There are, activities such as go karts, slingshots, corn maze, zip lines, and campfire, at 5 dollars. I guess that place is more suitable for kids because the games are pretty simple. The worst thing was we had our campfire in a fenced place full with animal dungs and the campfire wasn't as big as I expected. It was rather a small fire like the one we have for bbq, and the 'smore' they had were just burnt marshmallows. Anyway, I had fun because I had friends around with me. They did a lot of funny and stupid acts and we took a lot of pictures. =D

Now, Hong Kee and the fellows from apt 13 went Omaha for Wasabi sushi and I am now stuck in Cather! >.< They did invite me to go actually but I just feel like having some me-time and sleep until I wake up naturally. But i didn't get to do that because my mom and sister called at 11am and had a 2 on 1 quarrel again just because they think that I just wanted to sleep and was not willing to talk to them. I already informed them about the trip the day before to avoid these situations. I don't know what they expect to get from a person who slept at 3.30am yesterday and got up by a call, but I just don't want them to think that I'm not willing to spend time with them.

Sometimes I just don't feel like sharing things with them just because they often get mad, nervous and freak out with small issues. I don't mind them sharing every single small thing with me such as how bad the weather nowadays is (when I'm suffering worse weather) and how naughty her students were, but they just like to intervene my decision for every single small thing such as what time to do laundry and what to have for lunch, and get sensitive and mad when I think they are too caring towards me.

For me, the distance between us is so far and the talking time is so limited, we should appreciate the time spending with each other but not being controlling towards each and everything I do and quarreling with each other. Sometimes I rather I missed the call or hanged up the call right away than looking at the angry and crying faces. Yes I'm hot tempered but I am working on it very hard but still I can't change the situation by unilateral effort.

Getting Better.

2011-09-16T06:08:00.004+08:00

Lazy Vivian havent been updating her blog for few weeks! Heres some brief updates for these periods.

On 2nd September, after few negotiating sessions with the RD, I moved from room 711 to 720, which is one end to the other end of 7th floor. Although they are very efficient on solving the problems (air-con leaking and pest control) in 711, still I requested to move because I do not like that room anymore. Tons of appreciation to Boey and Zhao Hao for helping me to move my stuffs from one end to the other until midnight due to the tight time limit given to move to 720. It is definitely cleaner, and maybe newer because the thermostat is newer, than 711. I hope for the best and the room is still fine until now.

I attended two pot luck, a gathering and a Raya open house in these few weeks. Many of them are very good drinkers and they mixed every single drinks they had (bailey, black label, beer, salt water, vinegar, berry juice, lipton tea, milk & etc) to punish the losers in games. I almost ko in the second pot luck because having too much of disgusting drinks. As for the open house, the hosts are all very good cook and four of them stayed awake for more than 24 hours to prepare the food. There were fruit+veggie salad, mi sarawak, curry chicken, and super awesome rendang! Is that all? Of course no! They made Malaysian kuih muih and fruit punch too!

Also, I met Woan Ling, a girl who is having the same problems with me. I like her very much because she is nice and caring, and we share the same thoughts. She cooked maggie and boiled hot water for me when I had no food to eat on a weekend. It sounds nothing but actually mean a lot for me and I appreciate it very much. I need to mention the people from 13th and 14th apt in white house because they mean heaps to me too. They are just there whenever I need help. And now the members of another house are willing to adopt me on weekends and its all up to me whether to stay overnight to not.

I feel lucky that every time Im stumbled, there will be someone pulling me up with warm hands. They make me feel that I am not alone. My life is better now. For the people who love me and I love, I will hang on and give the best I can to take care of myself!

*Hope for the best for everyday*

Btw, my love SeeYin Tan is leaving to Turkey. I wish she has a safe journey and everything goes smooth. xoxo

I want to go home.

2011-08-28T06:50:00.004+08:00

This is the 14th day I have been in Lincoln, Nebraska.

Mom asked whether I miss home during yesterday's FaceTime session and we cried together.

My answer is definitely YES.

When I see the pictures taken by the NU gang who have landed in Midland few days ago, I strongly feel that I should have came with at least someone who I know and good to get along with.

I'm not saying my life here is suck. I am very lucky instead. I have a dad who is willing to support me to study here, a boyfriend who willing to stay up late just to listen to my nonsense, and bunch of people who mentally and sometimes financially support me in Malaysia.

But now I know how stupid I am. I have a room with bathroom, my little gold that commutes me everyday, bed with my very own smell, kakak to take care of my daily stuffs, and sometimes my very own driver to drive me back and forth. Plus my house is near to every single shopping center in the town. In Lincoln, I have to walk from building to building for classes, walk to the NEAREST convenience store (not shopping center) which is 2 miles away from the building I'm staying at just to buy snacks to fill my stomach, staying in dry and stuffy ice cold air-con room, using public toilet and bathroom, have cold food for breakfast, clean the room, dump rubbish, and deal with strange people with slangs and some shit faces.

I find very hard to say goodbye every time FaceTime or Skype with my dearest ones from home. Sometimes tears just roll down form my eyes right after they hang up the call.

I know everything is hard at the beginning. I know I need time to get use to every new thing here. I know everything will be alright. But what I know is different with what my mind is thinking and my heart is feeling.

I want to go home.

Bit Of The Day

2011-06-23T13:09:00.001+08:00

Me: (laughing like nobody is watching)

Mom: you stop laughing like this and take care of your image, no wonder Ben and Bryan don't like you!

Me: (roflmao) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mom: =.=

相见恨晚

2011-05-23T19:54:00.002+08:00

I never know we have so many similarities before these few weeks. I know her since the first day of class in college but never tried to know her in deep. Maybe I was scared by her coolness? LOL

Theres only around 2 months left and I want to appreciate every moment spending with her and the gang. Even if there are something that I still cant get through (maybe a give and take on relationship), I will at least cherish those that I am having in my hands now. Im trying to be optimistic~

I'mYourLush Give Away!

2011-04-26T21:04:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!

I'mYourLush is giving away cosmetic products worth $600!!!

This luxury give away includes GHD products, the MAC Quite Cute Collection and the naked palette!

Do have a look at this link

http://www.imyourlush.com/2011/04/600-worth-giveaway.html

Try your luck babes!

xoxo

After 5th April 2011

2011-04-06T00:54:00.004+08:00

Finally the day that I expected a lot had finished.

I wanted to hug all the hot dudes but ended up with hugging either fat or skinny guys. XD

I was quite shy towards my AUP friends and I think I made my NU guys shy. The girls are very cooperative and I did manage to get hugs from all of them. =D

Anyway I had a great day and I believe the celebrations do not end here. Im gonna celebrate it like a rockstar since this is my last birthday celebration before leaving to the States.

Maybe Im too greedy, I wanted to see all the faces that I wish to see in one day. I think God sek me alot. Im even missing Donna Loh now. =(

One of my wishes back last year had came true. It was dedicated to KKB who was suffering from some sickness and he did get well after all the hardship. Hopefully he stays healthy and happy for the rest of his life.

Im not a teenager anymore and I know its not easy to be a 20 years old adult but I will buck up to keep myself up with the speed of time. Im a little bit selfish this year, I keep all the wishes for myself and my family. I think the challenges waiting ahead are havoc and I really need the courage and luck to face all that. *keep my finger crossed*

等值交换

2011-03-31T21:02:00.003+08:00

倒数过的日子有些可怕。

一方面期待冒险，另一方面责怪自己装潇洒。

两年不长不短，但人就是会害怕失去和改变。

我拥有天下最好的家人和朋友，每次一想到要放下那么多眼泪根本就忍不住。

如果2012末日预言是真的那我们相处的时间最多只剩半年。

就算不是真的，会到来时可能全部都变了。

虽然轮不到我，但还是会担心好多。

担心他不控制饮食，担心她太依赖长不大，担心她人太好被欺负。

担心他忘了车停那里，担心他太贪小便宜赔了夫人又折兵。

担心她想不开，担心她太好强伤了自己。

现在见一个就不舍得多一个。

那天他打电话给我，以为终于要展开攻势了。

但是别傻了，世界上哪有那么多笨飞蛾。

有时甚至还会装一下粗鲁斩桃花。

缘分还是要顺其自然好，期待多失落就更多。

拥有那么多，放不下的就那么多。

谁叫我有那么多，现在可以做的只有珍惜。

A Cute Coconut Head

2011-03-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Student: What sir are you?

Me: I'm not a sir but a miss.

Student: What miss are you?

Me: I'm miss Loh.

Student: Then what miss are you?

Me: =.=... Dont ask so much, faster go n bow sir Liew.

EPIC Mom

2011-03-15T18:55:00.001+08:00

Eh, will you be free on June? Wana go Peng Hu with your aunts?

Free. No prob.

Which day? Or which week?

Any day la. I don’t have either any commitment or boyfriend, I can leave anytime I want.

Then why not you get a boyfriend?

=.=…

I wana be FEARLESS

2011-01-31T23:27:00.003+08:00

I feel the fear each time I make a step.

It's like getting a dream come true, yet don't know what will happen next.

I'm fear of the severe uncertainty.

I'm afraid of making wrong step.

Anyhow I don't allow myself to turn back.

For any reason.

I don't want to lose the courage to explore.

I believe that I am created for a purpose and there's certainly a reason I have chosen this way.

Yet I couldn't deal with uncertainty.

Day by day I started to hold firm the time spend with family.

I don't know how Jean can face all these.

I don't like the farewell dinner cz it reminded me about her leaving.

Imma selfish human that I dont wana lose anything of mine.

The hardest thing to give in is the family.

It's the way chosen, and it's the way to continue with.

And the problems are what I have to deal with.

Viviloh, faster choose! whether to stay in campus or off campus, and whether to choose which resident hall.

Accident

2011-01-12T23:38:00.003+08:00

阿雯的小金被人撞到屁股了。 =(

还好雯爸爸和雯妈妈很通情达理，都说人没事就好。

隔壁的叔叔还很不话得地带我们去认识他相熟的修车厂的路。

只欠还不知道肇事者愿不愿意赔偿。

被撞的当下还真紧张得不知所措。

还好还知道要打双边讯号灯，息引擎才下车。

输入肇事者的手机号码的时候，手还在震。

那是多希望有人在我身边，至少不会那么无助。

经一事，长一智。

小雯今天又长大了一点啦。

A Busy, Tiring, but Happy Day

2010-12-20T21:04:00.001+08:00

Miss Loh attended the sparring class because of the promise to Mr. Kuang and the KK trip meeting.

Haven't been training for a long time, the stamina dropped 99. I'm not sure since when our round training became fitness test. I thought we had to do 3 rounds so I gave up in the second round. Mana tau we only have to do 2 rounds, I'm being a lazy senior!!! LOL

Gladly my skill is ALMOST still there. I was surprised when seeing the stunts, eyes, and posture of Alvis. She was being playful, lai lai han, and balia. But now, I don't really dare to fang shui when sparring with her. Others still the same, the 3 Sarawak siblings are still that aggressive. But Evelyn seems a bit not improving. The major problem of the juniors is their attitude, never bow senior before and after kicking one lo. Anyway I'm really happy and proud because some of them still calling me MISS even I quit teaching for so long already. This means that they already accepted me and still believe in me.

I'm glad to know that water rafting is included in the KK trip! I can challenge the higher levels very soon! I believe the gang will gladly go for higher level because tkd players love THRILLS!!!

Rushing back from balai, I went to 1U to join the FAMILY shopping after a quick shower. Uncle Cheok asked whether we want to buy crocs shoes or not because 30% off will be given if purchase above RM300. If we buy together we will get more deduction. Crocs was not popular among my own family members because the shoes are expensive. But after the KK family trip, my dad really believe in crocs because the aunties' families were all wearing crocs and they even worn crocs to climb up hill. Dad bought me a dry bag to bring to the next KK trip to secure my valuables from getting wet.

After the shopping session, I rushed back home and wait for Kenji the birthday boy to pick me up. They were late for half an hour. =.= I shouldn't have rush back. But they are forgivable la they were late because they went to the wrong way. They are normally punctual.

The attendances were Kenji, Kenny, Jin, JohnWin, Kam, Hong, Goey and Vivi Loh. We headed to MOMO steamboat for a late dinner. We dined until the shop closed. LOL

Actually I really envy their friendship. They are being so close since peralihan. No secret among them, the share and help each other all the time. I don't have to worry even I'm always the only girl. They are very good in taking care of me and making jokes. I'm actually kinda proud to be the only girl among them. OMG I'm single but enjoying all the girlfriend privileges!!! I'm so greedy!!!!! XD

They asked me when I will be leaving to US, only I think in detail, actually I only left half a year in Malaysia. But I think I have to take another semester here to compensate the credit hours. So possibly I will leave in 2012. AH I don't know. I just want to have all the fun and being with the family and friends I love before leaving.

The Family Trip to Kota Kinabalu

2010-12-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

I was invited to the wedding dinner of aunty Ting in Kota Kinabalu, and that was my first time to be in the beautiful Borneo land.

There is a common misunderstand. People keep saying seafood there is very cheap, thats for years ago. Nowadays the demand of seafood from other countries is increasing causing decreasing in availability and increasing in price.

I had been there for 7 days and 6 nights, and here's the itinerary.

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11th Dec Departure from KL to KK

Departed from KL to KK, check in to Marina Court, and get ready for dinner at Promanade hotel.

Their dinner 'tradition' is different for us, the new couple only don't have to go yum sing for each table after the yum sing ceremony on the stage. Less tiring for the couple and they had more time to eat compared to KL style.

FYI, Anthony Chang, the ex-Astro Star Quest winner is the cousin of the groom. I saw him in person!

12th Dec Sabah Tea, Kg Luandi Fish Spa, Kinabalu park, Poring hot spring.

I had witnessed the process of making Sabah Tea. I can't deny that it is quite special but I don't really like the smell of the tea. Also, they should promote more on it because it is so special and there are a lot of tea lover out there who don't know the existence of Sabah Tea! That's why Malaysia tourism ain't earning money.

The fish spa was very different with those in KL, it was a natural fish spa. We put out legs into a river, and the fishes will come and bite the dead skin of our legs. I'm extremely scare itchy kind of person, and I screamed like a mad kid when the fishes bite me. Anyway that was a good experience.

We went through a canopy walkway in Kinabalu park, it is longer but narrower than the FRIM's, and also less regulations. Poring hot spring was very near to the park. It is not like the hot spring we had in Selayang. There were pipes to connect the hot water into many small swimming pools. Turn on the pipe and you can enjoy the hot spring. But as all of us know, the Bumis always enjoy in 'their way', so we only put our legs inside.

We had seafood for dinner. Their seafood restaurants were like our Dai Pai Tong, few restaurants under a big roof, having their own tables and chairs. Another thing different there is the lai liu ha in KL are all in an aquaruim, that of KK is each in a big mineral water bottle, and the bottles are stored in an aquarium. The reason why is they will fight and eat each other if all in an aquarium. I think we kena potong there, the dinner cost RM700++ for 2 tables.

13th Dec Manukan and Sapi Island

The sea water there was clear and a lot of beautiful fishes there. We even saw small sword fishes! But it is not a good place for snorkelling and swimming because there were a lot of big stones and corals, and the visibility in water was low. We cannot really land properly and most of us got injured by the corals, and watching the fishes from the surface was clearer than watching them in the water. I went for a '3 generation fishing' with my grandpa and dad. All of us got nothing but the boat driver got 3 small fishes. It was really hard to fish there because there were a lot of corals and stones. The bait got stuck between the stones all the time.

14th Dec Kiulu White Water Rafting

We were supposed to go Klias wetland on this day but because of the rain yesterday made the water 'cantik sekali', the plan was changed. There was a stereotype in everyone's heart that it is a very dangerous sport, especially when we had to sign 'sang sei zhong'. But trust me, IT'S FUN!!! My 5 yrs old cousin also rafted! Of course, we played the 1 and 2 levels which is for below 10 and old folks. It was an unforgettable experience and I'm going to try higher levels in the KK trip with tkd buddies in Febuary.

Nothing to do after back from the activity, sister and I went to the shopping centers near to out apartment to do some shopping. I bought a dinner dress at 90 bucks in the one of the shop! XD

But honestly, everything in EM is more expensive than KL, we only bought those that we need in hurry or can't get in KL.

15^th Dec Klias Wetland

Since we have to gather at 2pm, we went to foot and body massage in BUNCH of 10. Guess what the foot+body massage that last for 1.5 hour only cost 53 bucks!

After that the women went for a quick shopping for Sabah t-shirts and lunch. Women always choose shopping rather than meal. LOL

We went Klias Wetland to see monkeys and fireflies. They are 3 types of species there, the unique species there was the Proboscis monkey. They have long nose, they live in group, and they do not practice monogamy. The male always own more than 1 wives, sometimes even more than 10. The best part of the monkey is when they ngek ngek, the females will line up and the male will 'go through' one by one. The boat driver said the ML process can last 'berjam-jam'. WHOAAAA!!! XD We did not have the chance to see the impressing process of Proboscis, but I witnessed the ngek ngek of other species of monkey! LOL

BTW, it was a black water river, so the existence of crocodile is guaranteed. We did not see any, but our boat knocked one crocodile.

We went back the jetty for dinner and headed for firefly. Fireflies in Kuala Selangor are like bees flying here and there. Fireflies in Klias were disciplined kind, they stayed on one particular type of trees, making them like hristmas trees!!! The moon was VERY bright and the visibility of the fireflies were low. The driver told us, if there was no moon, the trees will be very bright. INDEED! The moon covered by the cloud after he said so, and WOW there are Christmas Trees!

16^th Dec Karambunai Resort

We left Marina Court and headed to Nexus Resort in Karambunai. It is a must-go resort (if you can afford it) that many Hollywood and Hong Kong superstars like to go. Karambunai beach is soooooo nice! 99 times better than Manukan and Sapi because the sand was so soft, no hurting seashells, stones and corals, and the water was shallow even we played during the ebb tide. The waves were quite big because of the rain, but still safe for children to play. We played monkey game there with the children. We played until exhausted.

After shower, we gathered and search for restaurant for dinner. We went for a 'resort tour' and found a Chinese restaurant. It was at a hidden corner and we wont find it if the waiter didn't tell us. We would have went to the expensive buffet. There were no customer when we enter, we thought that the food was not nice. Surprisingly the food there was awesome and the waiters were very friendly! My little cousin finished 1 bowl of rice (normally he can't even finish half bowl)!

We went to the beach again to hunt crabs. The kids wanted to catch crabsssss. So we went with them and had a walk. The stars were WOW, the sea were WOW, and the crabs were WOW!!!

17^th Dec Departure from KK to KL

Some of us purposely wake up early in the morning to walk along the beach, especially the children. Some kind of small insects like those among the bushes were flying around, I thought they wont cause any harm so didn't bother. Mana tau a lot of itchy bumps appear on our uncovered part the day after we back. OMG we are scratching like monkeys!

We had to say bye bye to Nexus, even we didn't manage to enjoy all the facilities in one night stay. Should stay at least two nights to fully utilize the facilities. Bye to Sabah too!

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This was a really enjoyable trip. I gained quite a lot of experience and the thing that I appreciate the most is the bond of the family. This is my first trip with whole bunch of family. In this trip, we helped each other, tolerated and cooperated to make things work. No need to wear any mask. Besides, I always wanted to bond with the trio but they were being too shy. Being together for around 1 week, they accepted us and willing to play with us. They even came to my room to kacau! When I went to my grandma's room to kacau, she asked me to sit beside her. Now the grandparents really accepted us and treat us like their own grandchildren. I don't know how long the good relationship will last, but I never want the bond to break.

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Here's some jokes of the trip.

The trio cousins of mine are English ed and are learning mandarin. They don't understand Cantonese. My grandma speaks Cantonese.

The grandma asked: 行来行去累不累？(running here and there, tired or not?)

Then the mother asked them whether they understood or not.

The eldest one noded and said: grandma said 跑来跑去看到鬼 (running here and there and see ghost)

My another 2 little cousins never been to beach before, apparently. When we were leaving, their mother asked whether they want to pee or not, if want faster pee in the sea. Then the brothers went to the sea, and take off their one-piece swimming suit, squad down in the water and pee.

My father, the kaufu (uncle) of the kids, was the leader of one of the raft during water rafting. He commanded: head down! head down! when passing under the trees. Then, he lower down his head and knocked on the paddle that he holding.

One of the trio can't sleep at the night, his father told him to keep thinking of something and he will fall asleep. The son suddenly laughed because he thought of kaufu's incident!

Regret? NO!!!

2010-12-05T13:40:00.001+08:00

During the Malaysian style breakfast this morning, fei baba, leng mama and I talked about Malaysian education. They asked me "Did you ever regret that we did not allow you to skip standard 4?"

There is nothing to regret actually. Every road has its own way out. My parents said there is no short cut in education. INDEED but it is very subjective. Anyway I'm grateful towards them. Because of the decision they made, I played and enjoyed my childhood as it should be without going through high pressure to buck up standard 4 syllabuses, and own everything that I have now. I believe they are glad to see what I have and who I am now. ^.^V

If I had chosen the other way, I may have owned more than what I have now, but who cares? I'm satisfied with what I have now. I have the best family, friends, my own properties, and my dream. I'm already having quite a perfect life (it would be even better if I have a bf =p), nothing else I should yearn for. I won't be meeting Mr.White, baby Ling, brother HW and my BFFFsssss if I went the other way.

The only thing is that I want to excel in my studies to reward the givers even though they never tend to become takers. BTW I can earn relatives' respects towards them by striving in academics. To those literate kampung people who pay attention to academic results more than personality, you will know top grades are not going to help much in future career. muahahahahahahahaha…

Dear fei baba and leng mama, I NEVER regret ah. Thankiu bery much ah. <3<3<3

Rojak

2010-11-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

Finally this bizarrely tough semester had ended. Was it because the subject combination? I never feel this hard before. There's a lot that I want to convey after all.

Today baby Ling told me that she is having her hard times in academics now, and lost as in don't know what she is doing so hard for. This is exactly what I felt during the exam month. But I keep telling myself that I just have to take it a little more than I will get what I want. And here I am! Best blessings for my baby Ling.

I made the first step to talk with my parents about clubbing. I don't like to do underground actions and I don't like to lie to my beloved family either. Surprisingly, they allow me to go! *With the condition that I take real good care of myself.

Dan: Why Yin so pretty don't have boyfriend wan?

Vivi: Am I not pretty? Why don't you ask me this question?

Dan: You are pretty la. Actually I tried to tackle you last time one lo but you closed your door tight until angin pun tak boleh masuk.

Vivi: LOL

Dan: Come la try to open a bit la~

Vivi: Okay la I open for some angin to masuk.

Dan: @@*zadou*

Honestly I suddenly feel like loving after passing through the busy period. It keeps turning on and off. Am I like what Dan said? Maybe yes maybe no. Sometimes I think I don't need anyone to make myself perfect. Sometimes I feel that I have no one to share. DILEMMA But I don't want to be in love because I want to, I want things to happen naturally. And actually this is not a good time to be in love because I want to focus on fighting for my dream and wouldn't be a good gf material. So just let it be.

The family conflict happened few weeks ago had been resolved. Sister said maybe my dad owe me something in the past life that I'm like his second wife nagging this and that. Mommy said that is what daughter for, and my dad actually couldn't resist to his daughters. LOL

That's all temporarily. This post is so damn rojak that I couldn't think about a good name for it. XD

Recent Updates

2010-11-10T21:07:00.003+08:00

Phew... Temporarily free from assignments and tests. The only thing left is the last SPSS lab assignment.

I have been doing and following up the university application documentation, went through kinda many processes and also caused some minor problems to my parents. Thinking of the life that I will be experiencing in the future, I'm actually getting excited and awaiting for the moment. Although I know I have to go through a lot of hardness before getting the happiness I wanted, I believe that I will worth the price at the end of the day. The only thing and only person I cannot get through is my mom. The thing is she is conspicuously getting older as she keep forgetting what she said and repeating the same thing after couple of minutes. And also the father brother and sisters keep bullying her these days because she is too generous and kind. I'm worried. But I know that she want me to go without any worries about home.

It is always hard to make choice when it comes to love and ambition. But like I tell myself, it is only 2 years. It will pass in the blink of an eye.

2010-11-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

Phew... Temporarily free from assignments and tests. The only thing left is the last SPSS lab assignment.

It is always hard to make choice when it comes to love and ambition. But like I tell myself, it is only 2 years. It will pass in the blink of an eye.

Meet Creamie

2010-11-06T19:49:00.005+08:00

I don't have much interest in playing Barbi Dolls, in fact I messed up the one and only girly doll in my memory, by drawing on her body with markers and made her hair like sakai. Other than that were plushies that I received in my birthdays (maybe I look too cute that people thought I like plushies, they made up 80% of the presents I got). Perhaps, I played cars robots and legos when I was small.

This time, is the very first time I'm so in love with a 'plushy'. Its neither furry nor fluffy. Its pillow-like its soft its adorable and its EXPENSIVE =.= . Anyway I'm willing to pay for a handmade and one of the kind thingy once in a while. I like soft pillowsss!!!

TADAAA!!!

I like the warm color tone so much! It makes me feel calm and happy.

I think of chocolate milk and caramel everytime I see it, it looks yummay~

I BRANDED on it with my initial. Feeling so excited and arrogant to have such a unique thing!

I want it to be my friend my mate my bff wherever I travel.

BeaniPet 2nd Anniversary/ Birthday Celebration Contest

2010-10-19T01:09:00.010+08:00

Here is something for you...

Lovely scrunchy,

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that even comes in pair,

Headrest,

even cuter headrest,

Bolster,

Clutch bag,

and even 3D game!

Guess you are asking where are these awesome items from!

They came from the Idea of a growing Bean that spreads love and passion of Jun Yue,

the founder of BeaniPet.

They are adorable, huggable, and unique as ourselves because they are one in the world.

All the pets have name, their own characteristics, birthday and hobby!

Amazing right?

Now's the chance to win them home!

Join the contest celebrating the 2nd Anniversary/ Birthday of BeaniePet!

You just have to

1. take a picture of "The Best Birthday Cake" for BeaniePet's 2nd Birthday Celebration,

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3.vote for your favorite picture in Facebook at http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=49042093894 from 25th October to 30th October, and

4. check whether you are one of the winners on 1st November!

Additional points will be given if you promotes the contest either in

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The prizes waiting for you are

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ONE Special Most Voted Prize,

and TEN Vouchers!

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谁来救我

2010-10-17T12:02:00.005+08:00

有点沮丧，两颗智慧牙竟然可以弄到我做什么都没心情。

下面的生不出，牙龈发炎肿，上面的却拼命生。

嘴是关了，但两排牙齿却要一直开着，因为根本都盖不紧。

妈买了好吃的早餐，本来很兴奋，但牙齿闭不紧怎么咬？

一小时才吃了一半，整个心情都没有了。

待会大家去聚餐，我一个人在家emo。

拔？我生人不生胆，怕痛怕到死。医生说拔了要休息一天，下星期根本就没时间休息，就算要拔也要等星期五。那之前的那几天我要怎么过？

不拔？要一直这样下去吗？

上天真是再开我玩笑，已经忙不过来了，还要来折磨我，我看我不痛死也会被吓死。

每次明明很想要有人陪着来面对，但最后还是硬着头皮自己去死。

Hug me. Tell me.

2010-10-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

Just give me a hug and tell me I can do it.

怀念

2010-10-09T20:33:00.004+08:00

大人常说要三思而后行，但我怀念我的义无反顾，和曾经没经大脑做的决定。

即兴的决定也可以留下美好的回忆。

Again & Again

2010-10-01T13:10:00.005+08:00

BIO 80%

CHE 88%

PHY 88%

ADM 80%

HIS 88%

LOV 0%

MOR 90%

Why am I always have no choice other than to let go the chances?

褒还是贬？

2010-09-12T22:10:00.008+08:00

我觉得你酱很漂亮咧，你很适合酱的打扮，放荡放荡酱，风尘味很重，很像那种……男人会来搭讪说：“小姐我可以请你喝杯酒吗？”，然后就问去你家还是我家了……

真是让小妹我哭笑不得……

褒和贬只有一线之差，无奈！

Crystal Hill

2010-08-29T12:51:00.003+08:00

Haaaaaaaaaa~

Finally came back from Crystal Hill with the 6 dudes.

They picked me up at 5.30 and it was raining. And the way up to the hill was kinda slippery.

Besides, there were some parts that we had to CLIMB up like rock climbing.

Its kinda adventurous and fun!

The sand stones and rocks there bling bling and thats why it is called CRYSTAL mountain.

As the only girl in the group I seem pulling them back because they keep taking care of me.

But I tried my best to handle everything myself so that they can proceed fast.

The scene up there was nice, like what we see in fairy tales.

I fell down once because of the slippery way, and I landed with my left knee.

I dont feel much pain after that, but now its kinda pain.

And the wounds by leech are still keep bleeding keep keep bleeding!

This is the first time I got bitten by leech, I didnt know that it wont stop bleeding. =.=

I wish my knee getting well soon so that I can beat my enemy in the war game on Tuesday!

People in love is SO ANNOYING!

2010-08-22T00:35:00.002+08:00

People in love is SO ANNOYING!

Earlier I thought it was just normal sharing but it is getting more and more detail.

Actually you don't have to tell me everything about him in such detail way in every second with me.

Mr. Candy

2010-08-11T22:54:00.003+08:00

You always makes me feel sweet.

In Love with ettusais

2010-08-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

Im totally in love with ettusais products!

It's a famous Japanese brand that available in Isetan in Malaysia. Good quality, awesome results, and cute designs! Even better if the price range is lower. =p

My mum and sis normally make purchases in Isetan KLCC, but I don't really like the attitude of the woman there. She was so impatient and arrogant like we cannot afford to buy the products. And because of that I always purposely touch everything on the counter, ask a lot of questions and leave without buying anything. *evil grin*

Last week I went to Isetan MidValley, the girl was very friendly. She explained the functions of the products and the ways to use them to me with a lot of patience. Also, she mentioned about the member card, which my mum, sis and I never heard from the woman in Isetan KLCC even we spent over thousand there. How many points and benefits we lost as we are considered as fans of ettusais????? Seriously I wont go back to ettusais counter in Isetan KLCC unless I don't have the choice.

I read girl's talk, ettusais Singapore organized some contest to search for ambassadors. If this happen in Malaysia I will definitely participate because I can't afford all the skincare and cosmetics. Although they are considered inexpensive for the satisfaction created, but I'm poor student maaaaa. =(

I want the lip essence sooooooo much but I would not get it in the near future because of my limited financial ability. Argh... =(

花痴发作

2010-07-30T00:34:00.002+08:00

有一个帅哥时常在这里健身的咯。

那他不是很壮咯？

是咯！我要～

你要什么？

我要啦。

你要怎样？

嗯……我要摸～

（直接巴我的头）

XD XD XD

听妈妈的话

2010-07-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

她可以坚强无比，不顾一切来保护你。

也可以因为你一句放弃，而心碎得像粉末。

女人可以为了重要的人粉身碎骨。

这是本性，这是基因，从以前到现在。

我看过一篇文章，写着父母对你好是任务，不是义务。

我身边也活生生的例子，一些朋友的父母不愿意扛起养育的任务。

但我很肯定很相信很坚持，父母是世界上最伟大的人。

Squeaky Clean Brushes

2010-07-26T01:13:00.002+08:00

Washed my brushes~!!!

You wont believe how dirty your brushes are until you wash them.

Goey is the Man!!!

2010-07-25T22:08:00.005+08:00

Vivi attended ASQ Final yesterday.

Why was she not watching at home like previous years?

She wanted to support her dear friend, Goey!

He got the first place in composing~~~!

Congratulations to him.

Lotsa people support his opponent more but after all good and bad is very personal and we cant please everyone.

Thanks to him too.

Otherwise Vivi wouldnt have the chance and initiative to gather with the bunch of friends!

By the way she also had the chance to listen to Goey's amazing voice again. *missed his voice a lot!

She had fun with them and is missing the fun now. =(

She will never be bored with 203 because they are so so so lively and funny!

Vivi will miss 203 very very much.

Vivi has chatted with Mr. J for quite a long while.

She knew that he is still not over her yet.

He mentioned the happy moments they had.

And also some of his recent life.

His she is very ridiculous.

(Vivi considered her as extremely ridiculous.)

But his principle is that as long as he still can handle, he wont mention about breaking up.

Vivi didnt comment much even I disagree with the statement because it is not my business after all.

But for Vivi, it is meaningless and time wasitng if one party keep giving and tolerate while the other party keep taking.

And he even cannot appear in this photo because he didnt inform her about this session.

Anyway this 'gathering' had fulfilled my 3 little wishes.

Listened to Goey again, Got the news about J, Gathered with 203.

FC p.s.

Being with them is the best welfare ever because there are so many good looking and hot dudes among them. Maybe Vivi should play spinning bottle with them one day. LOLOLOLOLOL

The Last Time.

2010-07-21T22:31:00.006+08:00

还不习惯看到bibi只身单影。

他也还没有释怀，整天都闷闷不乐。

相伴了十几年，连最后一面都没机会见到，还真是觉得很对不起他。

我也还不习惯，每次出门回家她都会舔我的脚，只对我这样哦…

每次都告诉她很痒不要再舔了，但现在要舔都没有了。

她很懂事，我们刚到的时候她还吼着挣扎。

姐跟她说了一番话叫她安心走了之后，她也慢慢静下来了。

看到她那么辛苦但却无能为力的感觉，说有多难受接有多难受。

我们回了不久之后就接到她走的消息。

她在她最害怕的雷雨天走了。

姐一只怪自己没陪她走完最后一程。

我们赶去看的时候她已经被打包了。

人家说狗狗知道自己要去的时候会离家出走，不会在主人面前没尊严的死掉。

是因为她的链牌被拆下来了，才不甘愿走的吗？还是因为见不到另一半？

Donna Loh, 这是我最后一次想念你。

不要再贪玩，不要再留恋了。

一路走好。去投胎。安息吧。

RIP

2010-07-20T18:27:00.004+08:00

She didnt close her eyes after gone.

死亡 · 你害怕吗？

2010-07-20T16:52:00.003+08:00

Headed to see her immediately after the vet's call.

He said her excretion was watery and black in color, and just vomited blood.

How come?

She was still fine this noon.

Not very active, but happily enjoying when the vet gave her some meat.

But when we reach there after the call... she was totally different.

Struggling on the table...

Cold legs... Rapid breathing... Uncontrollable salivation...

Nothing we can do other than standing and comforting her.

Is her end coming?

When I saw bibi after home, he was like asking me how's she.

He sat down quietly when he saw our sad faces.

I dont like to face parting.

Hope she can overcome all the hardship.

Donna

2010-07-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

I never know it will be so serious.

She was still normal few days ago.

I was shocked when the vet told us that it was already very serious and urgent.

He shown us her gum.

Normal gum is red in color but hers was in pale white.

Her blood count is very very low and she has heart disease.

The vet showed us her blood, it was as thin as water.

He said she is possibly having hormone problem, kidney problem, trauma or inner bleeding, or the worst is cancer.

I was speechless when I saw she didn't resist during the injection, it was so not her.

"Please come as fast as possible, we need the report very very urgent."

This is what I heard when the assistant called the lab person to come and collect the blood.

She has to stay in the clinic for 3 days.

God bless her.

学妹的信

2010-07-19T15:04:00.004+08:00

Hi!或许你还记得我，也或许你忘了，但我觉得，即使你还记得，那在你印象中肯定是中学时期的我。有些内心话，如果不说出来，我没办法给自己一个交代，所以我选择坦诚，如果换来的是你的厌恶，那很抱歉！

我记得小学一年级时，有两位巡查员，给我很大的安全感，那时还小，我对学校的环境很不习惯，但因为这两个巡查员，用空的时候陪我闹，才让我觉得学校的生活有小小的乐趣，其中一位巡查员，我确定是Zhen Min，所以之前就有和她聊起这个话题，她跟我说另一位或许是你。我不敢确定那是不是真的，但如果是真的，而你也还记得，那我想说的是，我没忘记那段时候，你们给我的呵护和乐趣，可能那不算什么，但那是我最珍贵的儿童记忆。

我记得在你五年级的时候，我再次看见你在礼堂的舞台练舞，那一次之后，就再没看见你。一直在找寻这个对我意义重大的人，但每想到上了中学，同一所学校，我却没发现你。。。
不管怎样，心里那一句“谢谢”是我一直想说的话，那一段记忆带给我很多的感动和快乐

愿你接下来的生活快乐 ^_^

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

人家常说，一个举手之劳可以让人铭记于心，今天我相信了。

看到这份放心之后有一点小小的感动。

中学的时候我还是她的学姐兼图书管理员组长。

从实习带到他们正式成为图书管理员，应该教了她不少事情，也对他们发了不少脾气吧。

那时为了锉锉他们的锐气，还不停的虐待他们呢！

但公私分明，玩的时候也蛮开心的。

有时缘分就是这样，淡淡的，但总是让人回味无穷。

希望她的生活也快乐，一切顺利。

Indulgence in Healthy Food

2010-07-10T22:13:00.006+08:00

After a long period of craving...

TADA!!!!!

Lui Cha!!!

With Mr. White!

And yummy Bak Goh Fu Chuk Yi Mai

Note this? Its a dog's paw print! XD

There are many many lui cha shops in town, but it is really hard to get one delicious one.

Like the one mom de superwoman bought from Desa last week, the rice was too soft making the whole thing tasted like porridge after pouring in the soup. And the soup was like came from the temple -- it was so thin!

I think this is the best in town, even better than Lui Cha King.

I was so so so satisfied today~

WOO!

House of Leeches.

2010-07-09T17:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I really don't know who is younger and who is older.

Why is she taking everything for granted? Accepting people's care and complaining people's bad but never give.

Left the plates behind expecting me to clear it, throw everything she don't want to me and want me to finish them for her, sleep until 12pm EVERYDAY but claimed that she only do that ONCE A WEEK, ask me to climb up to the highest level to check her windows but actually she just came down from her room, ... dining out uninformed and ignore the food that we kept for her there after coming back, and guess who's the one who keep them?ME!

I wonder why don't he feel ashamed for doing all these things. She is enjoying being taken care and taking things for granted, but when issues come, she will take her ELDER SISTER IDENTITY to pressure me. DAMN! Anything so special about coming out from the womb 5 years before me??? Won't she feel ashamed on taking this fact to pressure me again and again?

I actually want it to be clear, but whenever I talk about this thing, she will take out all the old HISTORIES to argue. The part I hate the most is that she wont control what she say in fights.

It is not she is not old enough to think. SHE IS OLD. I think the problem is her social network. Not I want to insult her, SHE SHOULD GET A BOY FRIEND!!! Getting along with children everyday makes her to behave like a child. But she don't want because she won't able to enjoy all these after that. Meaning after all she really really enjoys taking and prevents giving. Why are there such selfish people existing in this world?????!!!! And there are 3 in my house. 3 out of 6!!! Half of the human population in my house are leeches!!! How is my parents going to take this if I leave here one day? FML!!!

I'm good enough to handle you. Do not ever try to pressure me with your OLDNESS anymore because I won't give a shit to your lame reason FROM NOW.

Ch...Che...Chef!!!

2010-07-08T17:45:00.004+08:00

Vivi is happily being the chef of the week.

Her cooking skill is improving and she is even the potential future chef of the house after her mother.

She wants to learn all the awesome dishes from her mother so that she can kill home sickness when in the States two years later.

Joke of the Day.

2010-07-05T18:13:00.004+08:00

"Eh sis, this dress very young and romantic leh, why not you wear this?"

"You know it's YOUNG and why are you asking? You think I'm still 18 22?"

"Finally you admit you are old!!!! XDDD"

"..."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Keep on playing around with my brother's dslr these days. I love the effects. But duno why this stupid cannot zoom one. =(

Aunty??!!!

2010-07-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

"Aunty! Hi~"

"Im jie jie, not aunty. Hi~~"

...

However, I still love polite children very much. =)

Best Day of the Week

2010-06-26T01:24:00.003+08:00

I lived my day to the fullest, like a super star! XD

Mula mula, I bought breakfast for my family and curi makan 'some' of the food. There was a letter for me and Sun de sis cant wait to open it after she informed me about it. It was my DIVING LICENSE! Yes, DIVING license, not DRIVING license. WoOOOoOOO!

Then, I met the soon-to-be-birthday-girl Manda and Sher de sista at Garden, the Curve. Due to over curi makan before coming out, I couldn't finish my food. Is this considered as karma? Had a oh-so-short shopping session with the girls because they had to rush back for class at 3pm. I believe they were not satisfied because 1 hour is definitely not enough to shop around.

After home I waited for the driver of the day, Mr. Wang to pick me up for movie session. The Karate Kid is AWESOME!!! This movie is really educative. Life is about attitude. Life is kungfu, everything is kungfu. It made me think of the time we shared and cared, sought fun amidst sorrow, got punished together and cheering up each other. I will not forget the best time as well as the joy and sorrow we had together even everything has changed. Not forget to mention about the dinner and heart to heart session with Mr. Wang. Both of Cinderellas chit chatted until late night and went back with new perception of recent life, I think. Queen de mom asked me whether I'm in love and I told her that actually I considered him as my own little brother. Oh I'm not the youngest anymore!

Missing the kiwi head after all. Hope he will get well after this treatment. May God hears my prayer.

Today is the happiest day of the week. I don't wanna be in bad mood anymore.

p.s. Happy Birthday to Bee de 38 Queen! xoxo

没关系 =)

2010-06-23T21:25:00.001+08:00

不喜欢明明很介意，却笑着说没关系的感觉。

The Another Maid

2010-06-21T21:47:00.004+08:00

A new Cambodian maid is coming tomorrow.

I wish everything will be going well and she can really help mom.

I hope mom's burden could be lighten but not the other way round.

Anyway we won't have many chance to go out happily with no worries for these two years.

An Unforgiven Penny.

2010-06-21T21:24:00.005+08:00

You are now a real unforgiven.

You fired me on one side and used another identity to console me on the other side.

I will never understand and never want to understand what is your purpose.

The faker was not pointing to you but YES for now.

I found that I am not wrong calling you faker.

That's why you group with the so called friend.

You remind me of a penny, because your two faced and worthless.

I don't want to see anything from you.

Please get out from my territory.

Thank you.

Faded Love.

2010-06-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

I have not been wearing it for a long time until today.

Or should I say, I never wear it seriously before.

I still concern about him sometimes when I think of him.

But I don't miss him.

Just want to know whether he is fine and everything is ok.

But there is never a chance as long as she is beside him.

Anyway he is still the best until today.

微笑人

2010-06-21T20:34:00.004+08:00

他是微笑人。

它是一个礼物，是一个老朋友在我入伙新家的时候送的。

他知道我一个人睡会怕，所以还特地送了我两个。

可惜的是还有一个电线不够长，被冷藏了。

妈说别再用了，晚上开那么亮对新陈代谢和皮肤都不好。

她换了个盐灯给我，放在角落，没那么亮。

所以就是说微笑人要被淘汰了。

微笑人，谢谢你陪我度过那么多个怕黑的夜晚，掰掰咯。

Journey.You.

2010-06-20T23:42:00.006+08:00

Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

_____________________________________________

These are lyrics from the song Journey.

I think of this song every time I feel no energy.

I think of it when I face friendship problems.

I think of it when I feel lost.

I'm not tough as I look like.

I'm not cold blooded as I behave.

I'm not calm as I shown.

I'm still thinking of that incident.

Since he is so firm about his perception and decision, I will not explain anything to him.

But I still feel upset since we were close like siblings before.

I won't explain because it is so hard to explain.
I will try to forgive even it is harder.

I have nobody to talk to but you.

And luckily I have you.

At least I will not afraid to face it when you are there.

Yes I'm talking about you, the fairest of them all.

We have known each other for around 13 years (7 years in fact).

Although you became bery yau sing kak and not so sek me after that fight, I'm still glad that this time you are the one who support me, spiritually and physically.

But kanasai la our timetable is damn not matched, maybe you are not free when I'm free.

Anyway I don't think it's that bad as there are no matched time.

p.s. This is the very first post about my appreciation to you after so many kutuk post about you.

Pinky ze Massage Tool! XD XD XD

2010-06-18T09:37:00.006+08:00

Yah I was writing about somebody but I wonder why are there so many who claiming that they are the somebody.

If you want to perasan please perasan somewhere else but not spamming by a 7 pages message, asking me not to waste your inbox space which you are actually doing.

Someone told me, it doesn't matter for me to be frank in my blog because it is MY blog MY territory MY space.

So it's MY freedom to write here.

If you feel not comfy to read then please don't.

If you want to read please don't come and fire me like never before.

The reason you wish to know is as simple as I don't want to get my news feed page spammed.

Ah below is the main content of the day.

Yesterday Sun de sis convinced me to buy a massage tool to shape up my thigh from sasa de sinful store which I feel myself is so pathetic to the extend that I need a massage tool to cut down my fats. *giggling* This is the very first piece of massage tool of mine. I keep laughing at myself and at the same time hoping it to work things out. I feel my thighs are psychologically slim this morning! *LMAO* I wish the piece of plastic worth its price la~

TO the girls, the Avene Thermal Spring can be used to make the DIY tablet mask as well as used as toner! You can get buy 2 free 1 at sasa the sinful store, 3 x 300ml for RM110, which is around RM36.7 per bottle! You can do around 30 times thermal spring water mask with one bottle. WOW!

不屑

2010-06-18T00:44:00.003+08:00

不需要特意迁就，我不是会无理取闹的人。

而且我根本不怕面对，只是懒得面对而已。

邪不胜正，害怕的不应该是我。

不要再说想回到从前这种话了，因为你已经不是我认识的你。

如果真的知错，就不该推卸责任。

朋友不是挡箭牌，真心不是玩具。

不要再打我身边的人的主意，不然我不会对你客气。

英雄不问出生低，志比人穷叫做自甘堕落，光说不做是无能，说一套做一套是骗子。

你听过《狼来了》的故事吗？

我有自己的判断能力，并没有道听途说随便迎合。

不要把不爽发泄在在乎你的人的身上，别人对你好不是理所当然。

自己不像男人就算了，不需要到处宣传你的无能。

清者自清，能忍者为人上人。

心如明镜就能判断是非。

别在贤者面前耍低级的障眼法。

事情到此为止，懂得太多只会烦心。

我要以置身事外换取平静。

谢谢关心我的人，收到你信息的时候蛮暖的。

我想出走。

2010-06-15T22:39:00.004+08:00

我越来越同情自己了。

生活越来越平淡乏味。

空虚越来越浓。

生活失去了重心。

我到底遗忘了什么？

喜欢看到记事本满满的，好让自己没有白活。

看到记事本越来越空，下意识想把它填满，好像我有在过生活。

然后觉得自己很可笑，最可悲的不是让生活在过我，而是我竟然想要自己骗自己。

明明有很多朋友，但总是觉得很空虚。

长大没有想像中般理想。

上帝很公平，现实很无奈。

越来越多不能说秘密，越来越哦多让人乍舌的消息，越来越多负面的认知。

人心很脆弱，会为了保护自己做出很多违背良心的事情，久而久之变得无情。

现在想起之前的好朋友，翻脸的翻脸，吵架的吵架，有心结的有心结…

友情是个华丽包装的廉价玻璃球，打个喷嚏就破了，根本就经不起考验。

前几天看到到以前同班同学的消息，看到他们过得不错，心里很开心。

其实我很想跟他们说说话，但又不知从何开口。

他们有自己的新生活了吧？

很想回去训练跆拳道，我很想念jing和pris，很想念那种感觉…

但是发生那么多的事情，心结根本解不开。

能不能单纯为了练而练，只为了流汗而练，只为了见她们而练？

不需要虚伪的对每个人微笑…？

以前的我总是充满活力，什么都不怕。

每次都说，可以解决的就不叫问题。

现在好像破了洞的气球，泄气了。

遇到问题，明明知道可以解决，但就是很想逃。

我想出走。

我想去接近大自然，感受生命。

我想去下乡服务，但我不想染回黑头发。

我想去参加海边清理活动，为美丽的海边出一份力，但不想坐长途车，还要付钱去参加。

多想抛开所有顾虑，下定决心就出发，也许可以找回生活的动力…

我很想念那片海洋。

你要陪我吗？

A Converation with an Old Friend.

2010-06-13T00:17:00.007+08:00

I just had a chat with my baby Tee, YES, after such long period.

Changes happened after such long while, lifestyles, friends, thoughts.

One thing that never changed is that every time we chat, I will think of and miss those time we play eat rebel get scolded together.

*Thinking of Woon Tat incident, they accompanied me to find that stupid EggTart for a talk. Tee went into his class and called him out when I was about to lari.*

AND I FOUND OUT SOMETHING! when I saw the 'finally' from Tee...

SY has WK...

Ling has Jim...

Kuan has her dear...

Tee has Eug...

Bai has Kar... finally after 4 yrs

I dont want to be the next FINALLY laaaaaaaaaaaaa

It is just the fate has not come to me yet. *excuse excuse*

But I have to admit that sometimes I kinda enjoy to be alone because I can do anything like nobody cares.

I dont want commitment other than my family.

Maybe I will change my mind when I meet the somebody but not for NOW.

Anyway I'm really happy about them because they found somebody for themselves.

Especially our Kuan, she used to be the one who wants freedom the most. She found her him now meaning that he really worth it. I feel so sweet and happy when I saw the sweet posts on her wall.

The top vegetarian in the group, Bai, the FInally, what I want to say is that the inner beauty means more then the appearance. Appearance can be MODIFIED. lol. Go with your feel and love her because you mean it.

SY Ling and Tee are not so vegetarian, but I'm glad! The him's sound better than previous ones.

I sincerely wish all of you going well in your relationships. *wink*

After all the most commonly met was Bai and Ling. Oh I met Tee once at her shop around Valentine's day.

When only the six of us can gather laaaaaaaa.

That will be great if we can do something together-gether.

Woo!

Princess V

2010-06-04T22:55:00.003+08:00

Today was like a fairy tale. I felt like being a princess when I was trying on the gowns. I have never be in such grand, glamorous and gorgeous gowns before.

Now I know why the eyes of the princes in movies will fall on the floor at the moment when the princesses coming out from the changing room with gowns and heels. I impressed by myself too. It is not too much to use ugly duckling and graceful swan to describe the difference before and after wearing gown.

I was impressed with the prices too. The one I chose was not tagged and I was quite worry about the price. Luckily it is considered cheap among others in the shop, and alteration is included. This was the first time I tried on gowns and own one. And I finally know that buying one is cheaper than renting.

I chose a romantic young and pink one to be in my closet. It is chiffony and will not showing my tummy even if I eat much. XD Anyway I have to start keeping fit to fit in my own dress for morning session. =___= Please REMIND me when I lose control to food.

Photo taking is prohibited so I couldnt show any. =(

台湾风味馆

2010-05-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

Had a great day with my girls Sher, Bee, Guai and my bff.

Now I know how a oh ah jian really taste like! It is so great!

Finally there is a manly person appear around me.

But the person is a SHE!

I think that is why people say for women, there is no need for men.

We are definitely capable to manage ourselves very well and able to do solve problems even more practically than men.

We can become SHERO~~~

半年为期 ^.^

我为花痴我为花迷

2010-05-23T18:15:00.003+08:00

No matter how you use it, the result is only PRETTY!

B Visit! 2

2010-05-16T16:44:00.003+08:00

This is the second B visit. This time no more 4 water but 10!

We had very nice lunch and happy time over there, and they wanted to go to the beach after all. However I went back early with Jean, Manda and Sher for some reasons.

After home I was informed that KKB followed them to the beach too, and the important part is that he brought them for delicious popiah and burbur chacha!!!!! Both are my favourite food...T.T

I dont care I dont care! We must have another visitation in the near future and I MUST go for nice food. GRRRR...

Ah Boon! We love you always! Gambateh~ ♥

Mama said.

2010-05-07T18:15:00.004+08:00

在外面千万不要这样啊，人打扮到那么美，吃相那么丑。

=.=

妈，这叫自然、真情流露啦～～～～～

哈哈哈哈哈哈

米修

2010-04-27T18:45:00.002+08:00

Missing you badly.

Be strong. Be tough. Be positive.

B Visit by Molly

2010-04-21T20:17:00.004+08:00

I'm very glad to know he is fine.

Let's make him our motivation to get through our finals.

Gambateh everyone.

__________________________________

Woman was made from the rib of man,

She was not created from his head to top him,

Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,

She was made from his side to be close to him,

From beneath his arm to be protected by him,

and near his heart to be loved by him.

Saw this in somebody's status.

I know my babies will love it.

♥

Murmur of the Day.

2010-04-20T15:04:00.002+08:00

I made the very first own investment today, feel kinda satisfying. Hope it will be successful~~

Went carrefour to look for somebody who can help me to adjust 'my' watch. I was to make it very fast and go home quickly but before reaching the watch shop I already spent for 2 pairs of heels and some cakes. I'm too irresistible to colorful things!!!!!

Finally I arrived at the shop and happily asked that woman to tighten the watch for me. The result is not satisfying yet she charged me RM3. She told me it's already maximum which actually I can understand because this is not the first time I get this kind of answer. But still I can't accept it. Why can't they make the watches more adjustable? I was happily thinking I don't have to spent my own pocket money to get myself a watch but... Is this another form of discrimination to small frame people?!!!!

Can I like...

Suck the fat from my tummy...

And then inject to wrist...

=___=

花心.

2010-04-18T10:39:00.003+08:00

有时我比较爱爸爸，有时我比较爱妈妈；

有时我比较爱妈妈，有时我比较爱姐姐；

有时我比较爱阿比，有时我比较爱阿伶；

有时我比较爱阿颖，有时我比较爱阿莹；

有时我比较爱小白，有时我比较爱阿画；

有时我比较爱比比，有时我比较爱多娜；

有时我比较爱帅气派，有时我比较爱纯情派。

有时我爱一个人，有时我爱有人陪伴；

有时我爱自由，有时我爱被管；

有时我爱载人，有时我爱被载；

有时我爱发脾气，有时我爱好心情；

有时我爱搞三八，有时我爱搞自闭；

有时我爱抒发，有时我爱聆听；

有时我爱照顾人，有时我爱被照顾；

有时我爱找人吵架，有时我连解释都嫌麻烦；

有时我没什么耐心，有时我被自己的好耐心吓死。

有时我爱晴天，有时我爱雨天；

有时我爱抒情，有时我爱摇滚；

有时我爱派对，有时我爱宁静；

有时我爱品茶，有时我爱品酒；

有时我爱巧克力，有时我爱雪糕；

有时我爱化妆品，有时我爱护肤品。

我爱的人事物有太多太多，所有事情都是跟着心情走。

有时我也不知道我要什么，感觉就是我的指南针，但感觉却永远捉摸不定。

也许在成熟一点就会渐渐明白吧。

我可以只要前菜和甜品，跳过主菜吗？

坏男人

2010-04-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

男人坏起来真的是一个程度。

听了太多负面的故事真的会心有余悸。

妈妈说，选老公要选他爱你比你爱他多的。

雯子说，最好就是不要嫁，那问题就可以解决啦～！

Skin Pampering.

2010-04-16T22:48:00.004+08:00

These are what I'm using to pamper my skin. They look so not glamorous but the outcomes are so glamorous! What I have to do is just dump a stupid tablet into a stupid bowl with around 10ml of stupid toner, and leave it on my face for 10 minutes.

It's ~~a cheapskate's way~~ an inexpensive way to treat myself better because I just have to use a little bit more toner which I'm using everyday, and spend a little bit more to buy (Ops mine are free) the compressed mask sheets (I love to call them tablets because they look like panadols) to obtain the same result as regular masks. A 200ml Clinelle toner is around RM34 and I can do 20 times of mask with that. Bery bery cheap compared to normal peel-off masks kan?

Another reason I love this is that it meets my need of being a super lazy girl. Sometimes when I'm really really lazy I will just tear the piece of cotton pad which I used to apply toner into half and leave them on my blemish or wrinkle areas for few minutes. It sounds so lovely lay-z!

I prefer Clinelle and Kanebo (Ops only small bottle left) more than others because I don't really like the thickness of Neutrogena and Hada Labo. I wanted to try HABA so much but it is so expensive.

Stop keep getting cheated by those foot-in-the-door, door-on-the-face, snowball and that's-not-all techniques. Try this babies~!

Guai told me she never use any skin care on her face yet her complexion is so damn nice. Can you see how unfair the world can be?

~Perfect Breakfast~

2010-04-11T16:05:00.003+08:00

2(Half-boiled egg) + (Toast x cheese) + (Milo x Ovatine) + Apple = Perfect breakfast!!!

Carbohydrate, Protein, Fiber, Minerals, Water, Vitamins, Fat all present.

I feel very proud!

It made happy all day~!

谋杀·信任

2010-04-10T13:35:00.004+08:00

世界上什么样的人都有。

一个人可以有多污秽就多污秽，多龌龊就多龌龊。

为了要完成自己的目的，对身边的人一个一个下手。

不知所谓。

一群好朋友可以因为一个这样的人反目。

友情说得有多坚固都是假的。

人心是脆弱的。

常以为自己最特别，但最后还是被表面功夫骗了。

人在做天在看。

我还是不能原谅那个人。

如果当初他站出来认错就不会有这样的局面。

真正的朋友是在事情发生后还会继续默默关心对方的。

谁是谁非，一次就可以看得清楚。

旁观者清。

就因为这样，我看得很清楚，也很心痛。

为什么会这样？

难道每个人都爱美丽的谎言？

谎言是一颗雪球，只会越滚越大，越来越多受害者。

做这样的事一定会有报应的。

我对你的信任到此为止。

Desperado.

2010-04-07T19:13:00.008+08:00

突然好想谈恋爱，好久没有热恋的感觉了。

暖暖的胸膛，大大的手，壮壮的身材……

啊，流口水了……

一直都觉得自己会处理得很好，直到过了那次才知道，原来习惯了自己过，两个人的时候就不自在了。

但现在也没什么资格去谈恋爱，忙起来连家人都少见了，朋友也会埋怨，何况是另一半。而且也没几个人可以受得了我的脾气吧。

发白日梦是女生的权利，想想也爽啦～

～～～～～～～～～～～～

今天有个怪卡跟我聊，他说：

wow you look so different everyday

everyday different pattern

girls should be like you.

哇……

戴高帽戴到出面咯～～～

从来只有 you should be like a girl 没有 girls should be like you 的咯。

别说认识我的人，我看我爸看到都会喷水吧，真是的……

2010-04-06T01:24:00.009+08:00

~4 April 2010~

When I was scratching my head doing assignment, SK called and asked me to change, he was on the way to fetch me. He meant it. His car was in front of my house right after I change and I didnt even have time to wear my contacts.

Same as last year, they celebrated Wang and my birthday together.

Mayb we should put 37 candles. :p

Both of us look stupid.
But I love our stupid faces.
.

My bunch of TaeKwonDo friends. 5 generations here.

Ops Kenneth is acting cute!

~5 April 2010~

Bee de Christine gave me the first handmade birthday card in my life after English class.
I felt so touched with the pictures on the card.
It is full with our memories.

My homemade Prince Charming.

Our memories. Including my ugly pictures.

Had lunch with my bunch of flowers, Bee, See and Jean, my Ryan de bff, QiQi de colorwolf, Keat de oldman, and KS de S-guru. Sher and Manda coundnt make it because they stil got class.
I didnt know they bought something for me.
I was so surprised!

I promised to wear this dress on Thursday.

After home, I told mom that my bunch of Kepong friends asked me to go out at night.
She lao gai and asked me to stay at home.
I said, since we are not going out for dinner, and Im free later, I will go.
She then revealed the truth that sis already bought a cake for me and wanted to give me a surprise.
Of course, she was blamed for telling me about the surprise.
I said i will berpura-pura tak tau and still, I went out with the promise of I will back home early.

The girls...

And the guys!
My dearestssssss in Kepong.

I'm always the most pampered one. I can see their tiredness because they had class too.
White even just finished teaching kung fu dance. He came with his collar terbalik.
I love them.

After home my family celebrated for me and there was a drinking session held.
Since there has been a long time we didnt take family picture, I took the initiative to take. And there is a new member in my family who is my soon-to-be-sister-in-law.
I went through and fro for quite a lot of times, and I love this the most.

These are the presents I received.

The loveliest card from Bee, See, Manda, Sher, Jean, Esther and Pris,
Bag from mom and sis,
Fa dress for Fachee and rich woman bracelet from See and Jean,
Cute pj from Bee,
My 10th hairband from Ling.

Oh not to forget, my future brand.

Credits to Bee. Even my sis said it looks like printed.

I feel that I'm the happiest person in the world because I have a bunch of family and friends who sek me so so much.

After all, it's time for me to do exercise because I had D'Fortune, D' pastry for twice, Zanmai for twice in these few days. And there is a steamboat session in the coming Thursday.

My tummy is like...a balloon!

Still waiting SeeSee for more photos...

B Visit!

2010-04-04T10:52:00.004+08:00

Visited our dearest Ah Boon yesterday with Bee, Oldman and Wang. He looked fine and still quite cheerful, maybe just in front of us, but it's already more than I expected.

That naughty boy rebelled. He took dinner with us instead of having his mom's porridge with love. I can understand why he refuse to eat because it made me think about the meals while I suffering form food poison. His mom is kind enough to cook the porridge with some vege and fish. My mom, she cooked plain porridge for me T.T...

Had some nice time with them, feel very grateful to see that he is still alright. I'm still not agree with Oldman's thinking. For me, health is far more important than academic no matter how many weeks left for this semester.

I wish that he can able to cope with the check up on Monday. May God bless him.

关怀方式

2010-04-01T18:33:00.004+08:00

寂寞开在心事旁

随手种一些伤感

不让星星来窥探

找个沉默的夜晚

不让星星来窥探

随手种一些伤感

寂寞开在心事旁

我的关怀方式是你无法察觉的悲凉

只能在你不经意时才锁上我心房

你往常的亲切友善是我今生的遗憾

受伤后无悔地埋在不流露的脸上

昨晚睡前突然想起这首歌，我第一次去生活营的时候学的。

虽然不知道什么意思，但就是很喜欢它。

有一点伤感，加一点温暖，还有一点希望。

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

刚刚跟雪伶逃课去下午茶，医肚子顺便散心。

趁着人少少，我们奢侈了一番。

这是我们认识以来的第二次贵妇下午茶。

我很喜欢这样的感觉。

跟最亲密的姐妹一起，可以口不择言的噼里啪啦讲不停。

没有面具、没有掩饰、不用逞强。

就算我讲累了，她也可以继续讲她的，我负责听。

还有还有，我最爱的甜点是重头戏！

我爱死了。

我看我的每一面都差不多被她看完了。

平时脸皮薄的我，竟然不介意让她看见我脆弱的那一面。

也许我们很像吧。

I envy you.

When everything in your life is so fucked up, he is still there for you.

Love is the reason you meet him.

Don't make it the reason you leave him.

Cherish.

不要忘记我说的。

你的惊喜我会帮你的～

今天这个下午茶真的有让我的心情好一点。

谢谢雪伶，我爱你。

后记：快乐和好心情怎么越来越贵了…T.T

无言

2010-03-31T10:10:00.004+08:00

一直相信就算全世界都不了解我，只要家人可以体谅，我就会充满力量。

但是怎么妈妈开始不能明白我了？

你说我如果真的有功课做的话，就不会那么迟醒，但是昨晚人家也很迟睡好不好。

我一有空就会帮你嘛！

气死人！

越来越像小孩子了！

懒得跟你斗嘴。

你喜欢怎样所就怎样说。

我也是小孩子，哼！

Rabbit's Eyes.

2010-03-30T19:11:00.003+08:00

This is the third time.

I'm always the one who being knocked-out.

Why the good ones always so near yet so far?

I don't want to grow up.

Commitment...

Responsibility...

Toughness...

Wisdom...

At least I'm not ready yet.

I'm afraid of unpredictable things.

I'm scared of the feeling of helpless.

I'm not tough enough.

But I know I can pretend to be.

My heart is hanging.

It is cold and painful...

Shallow Eyes

2010-03-29T18:57:00.010+08:00

Don't like to cry in front of people, but I really lost control these days.

I really need a shoulder to lean on.

But sadly I am not daring enough to ask for one.

Anyway I had some best sized chests and shoulders for few minutes.

_____

It is still in my mind.

The picture, the process, the moment.

I was in position with the best view.

When I emergency brake this morning, it popped out in my mind.

It is a trauma.

It is a warning.

When would I manage to overcome it?

I don't know.

I am lucky.

For I am not injured.

For they are not injured.

For I have such good friends who came immediately, when we were panic and never thought of calling anyone to come.

God blessed me.

Thank God.

Thanks to Ryan, Keat, KKB, and Eric Cheah.

First came in my mind at the moment was 'Thanks and I love you'.

Bee, Seeyin, Jean, Wang, Eric Chon, TX, unknown guy, let's stop blaming ourselves and get out from the trauma.

Feel sorry to Wang for his first night out was ruined.

But I believe that his high ranking friends of MINE will take over my job to influence him soon.

_____

This was also my first time.

To see people drunk like that.

To take care of people even I was drunk too.

To be vomited onto.

I thought they were old enough to think about the consequences.

But I believe that they would not do it again in the near future.

Alcohol is amazing.

It reveals the ugly parts of human.

Still I don't like the feel of helpless.

_____

He is not the first person around me who suffers from that.

But he is the closest one.

Too many similar news.

It might be not that serious to cause death.

But he does not deserve to experience all the pain.

The sad fact is, these things normally happen on good people.

My uncle, ZP's mother, SZK, Sylvester...

I heard that aunty Y.A has fully recovered after all.

Even she refused to go for treatment at the beginning.

That's great.

I know.

He will be fine.

Very very soon.

_____

Life is fragile.

Please appreciate everything.

It is not too late yet.

Rebel

2010-03-24T22:50:00.002+08:00

They trust me so much...

Must bring torch light to avoid...

If tyre punched must....

If security system down must...

If this n that must this n that...

Yet I'm involved in rebellion!

guilty.

Miss Clumsy

2010-03-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

Did quite a lot of mistakes and frustrated my parents.

I'm too careless and clumsy.

I hate hate hate the clumsy part of myself.

Is there any cure for clumsiness?

难道粗心没药医？

Adam and the APPLES.

2010-03-20T19:36:00.004+08:00

I met Asolum in my dreamland.

He illustrated the difference between curiosity and intentionally.

Adam heard about tastiness of APPLE, so he plucked and tried one from the a reachable APPLE tree of his neighbor driven by CURIOSITY. It was really mouth watering! He then decided to pluck apples REGULARLY from his neighbor's tree.

NOTE: THIS IS ALREADY NOT CONSIDERED AS A CURIOSITY DRIVEN ACT BUT A SIN.

One day, he passed by Alibaba's house, he saw Alibaba's APPLEs are more ripening and red, he INTENTIONALLY wanted to pluck it. However he couldn't be success because it was unreachable from the fence. Same to the Witch's APPLEs, but the apple tree was spelled and he couldn't approach the tree.

NOTE: THIS IS ALSO A SIN.

But this time, his action were seen in the Witch's crystal ball cctv... (the continue story i lazy tell already. sien =.=)

Before awake, Asolum told me that, we should be responsible to our mistakes but not denying and pushing the responsibility to others. If you couldn't cover it, just admit, like a man. Blaming is worse than doing a sin.

You kept on saying that u always make problems to the surrounding people, indeed.

You always complaining that you are not as good as others, you don't have anything better than others bla bla bla... it is because you used up the time to do all those cheap loser stuffs. Blame yourself.

fragile.

2010-03-16T22:01:00.004+08:00

I'm fragile now.

I need a ear.

Wa WA Wasabi Game!

2010-03-14T00:07:00.013+08:00

Some crazy, lame, loser game lightened up my day~!

This cheap fellow taught me how to spend few bucks to waste an hour. XD

It's insane yet fun!

This is CRAZY.

I was new in this game and here's the tuition fee.

I broke his record with 3-3!

I'm good! V^.^V

People say young people always come out with new and creative ideas, that's quite true.

The reason he created this game is that he is afraid of wasabi.

*I normally only play games which I think I can win.*

This brought positive way of thinking way to me.

I should challenge what I'm afraid of but not what I'm comfortable with.

I want my passion back!

I hope I'm only influenced with his positive way of thinking

but not the brainless and impulsive way.

It makes things work sometimes but not all the time.

This kinda game, once is enough for a year. =.=

ps : I LOVE the CRAZY PART of mine!

Sherlyn = Potato = Eyes!

2010-03-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

Discussed about fruit with Mr. Daniel and came out with this.

What's sherlyn?

Chili?

No! She's cempedak.

No!

Potato?

YES!!!!! CNN!

lmao! rofl!

Unbearable Loneliness

2010-03-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

Feel like nobody can understand me.

I'm alone.

Dare not to tell my family. They have their own stuffs to busy with and I will be compared with my sis at the end.

Where are my Kepong friends. My absence to activities have been interpreted as 'too demanded and too many activities'. But in fact I yearn to be involved in all those happenings.

My classmates? All of them are stressed out too. No point I throw my rubbish on them.

Who else? Myself.

Developmentally Delay

2010-03-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

Maybe I was dreaming, maybe fantasizing, maybe too tired, my mental subjectively retarded on the way back to home. I saw the KEPONG sign board but I didnt turn into the junction and just passed through it. I realize when I saw strange landmarks. How retarded was I. I was really scared because the next sign board was to RAWANG. Luckily the next junction was to Sg. Buloh Hospital. phew~~~

I think Im too into psychology studies. Even just now when my brother was talking with mom I keep thinking... is he using convergent thinking or divergent thinking? =.=...

I just need a little bit more faith.

2010-03-04T14:02:00.002+08:00

I should have known these will happen when i decided to taken this path.

It's kinda different with the majority and not everyone could understand.

Sincerely i never expect it to be happened now but at least in the 2nd year.

These are what I lost,

Some good times with family.

2 very important friends, CYang and SYin's birthday celebration.

Lost contact and communication with another important friend for few weeks because of some stupid arguments.

*But for me that's still not my fault.

Trainings which I planned to go.

Some classes.

...and these are what I got.

Stress.

Uncontrollable emotion.

Sleep deprivation.

Dark circles around eyes.

Premature aging.

Blames from friends who cant understand.

Increasing loneliness.

And yet I only got 10.29 for my accounting test 1 T___T

Since I want to be different, these are the price.

Since it took so much from me, I want to make the result worth more than the opportunity cost.

This is just the process and I must have the faith and courage to go through all this tough times.

Since I know that I'm do not worth much with extrinsic motivation, I will try hard to motivate myself.

I can go through this.

花痴的白日梦 @@

2010-03-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

靠下去该有多好～！

ps : 啊～在梦里～

I LOVE Kampung

2010-02-15T22:53:00.005+08:00

Today is the second day of CNY, half day went to daddy's side and the other half mummy's side.

That's a big contra.

Daddy's side is more modern but have to wear mask. If you don't behave carefully no matter in words or action you would be the next main character in their gossip. The children there look cute but they are all evil like devil! They look like children but talk like adults and play like mad. But got lots of cocktails and nice wines over there. =p

My B-zai~

However, mummy's side the place a bit kampung but all of us bonded very tightly. We can talk everything we want and also scold the children whenever they are wrong. Although the age gaps between my cousins and I are huge but we have no gap when communicate even we meet once in a year. Besides, the children there all very pure and innocent. Not only look cute, THEY ARE CUTE!!!! It's awesome! They even followed us to our car when we leave. Made me felt unwilling to leave the place.

I love the environment of kampung~!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone! HUAT AH!!!!!!!!!

Unforgettable

2010-02-11T23:11:00.004+08:00

After a hard week, time to party!

Celebrated Flower Sher, bff sou Shin Hui and Pris' birthday at Friday tgi Sunway Pyramid. It was amazing and unforgettable! First time celebrate three person's birthday together. It wasRRREEEEEEEEEEEALLY fun! Took sticker photo after that, this was the first time i took with college mates! Shopped and watched the 'bowling battle' and finally, time to home~

I changed my mind on the way back home, I decided to buy the sticky from Tee today so that I can share v my flowers tomorrow. So I went Tropicana City Mall according to my consciousness and road sign. In a split junction, I realized I should go to the left side and stopped right before the junction, nearly bang a motorcycle. He was coming from the back with high speed when I stopped. =.= He slowed down immediately and shouted at me. Hak sei T.T I really didnt see him due to my poor eyesight at night. Luckily didnt bang him, didnt lost around there and got to arrive at TCM safely.

This is a lesson. I should find the place in the morning but not at night.

Long time didnt see baby Tee le. Miss her so much! Hope to see her again in the near future. Of course not only she and I but at least 6 if us.

GamBaTeh!

2010-02-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

罗艳雯，

这些事情不是第一次发生，

不应该那么在意的。

很快就过去的，

要加油哦～！

Today's Word

2010-02-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

妈妈说，男生是比较幼稚点的。

所以我们要对他们容忍多一点。

Hate Crime

2010-02-06T23:12:00.003+08:00

Have been doing 'hate crime' for a whole day. Mom called me to help her up to prepare dinner and didn't give me a chance to argue (she cup the phone T.T). I thought maybe it would distract my attention and I wont be so stressed, I went to the kitchen... cut this... mashed that... Initially I didn't do the cutting properly. After the anger went off I found i kinda enjoy cooking. So I just gave myself few hours of 'holiday'~

Time to back to hate crime... =.= I hate citation.

Unsatisfactionsss

2010-02-03T22:21:00.004+08:00

I know I know, didn't update for a long time...

I have not been feeling really really happy, calm, peaceful, relax like last time before. Is this a part that I have to sacrifice as I'm growing older? I'm seriously unsatisfied with my life now.

I want to improve myself, I want my cgpa more than 3.0, I told myself not less than hundred times during holiday. And what I'm doing now is definitely NOT the proper way to achieve that. Last minute work... shoo... go away...

Planning to go back to my teammates...
I miss those days in balai.
I miss those days in Abas.
I miss those days in staduin badminton Cheras.
I miss SK's scold, nag, criticize my moves.
I miss Jing's cheering scene, we can hear her even in a chaotic stadium.
I miss the scene that Kar Lap shouted his hell out from the audience seats (because he was not allowed to get down to the rings), just to give me courage.
I miss White's cheer. It always goes like this : Yen Ven dun give up! only 30 seconds left! you can do it! come on! tahan few more seconds!
Missing those days...
"Say... H-O-T-T-O-G-O, Taman Ehsan hot to go... Say WOO!"
I love Tae Kwon Do. I want back my passion.

I'm desperate.
I want a warm shoulder.
I want someone to share.
But as my Sher aka sister flower says, you will meet the right one when you stop searching.
So I think it is not the time yet.

Everything is not going well. Am I too idealistic? My extreme feelings become aggresive.
I want to live life. Reject life to live me.

Girls' Day Out!!

2010-01-27T22:32:00.005+08:00

Bee, Lyn, See Yin, Jean and I, 5 flowers went Pyramid for new year shopping. Manda couldn't make to join us because she had an headache and went back to home.

TADAA...!!! The shopper of the day is Jean! She bought some tee, vest and... a sexy dress!!! The dress is really nice on her. Thumbs up! We took lots of photos and I think See Yin will upload it soon.

I bought myself a beautymaker mineral loose powder, finally. That was the last box on the shelf, made me closed my eyes and flown my money. Also I bought a white tee because I only have either black or color tee in my closet. Hundred something flown away because of these two stuffs. =( Gotta re-budget my hair styling plan.

Lyn and See Yin went back early and after that we met Jean's colleague who I have already forgotten his name. They asked me to join a talk at S&S Sunway but I rejected. I don't like to drive at night because I really can't stand those sparkling stars on the highways. I don't know what you see with your normal vision, but I see like my eyes were either wrapped with a layer of plastic or filled with water. The lights all dispersed. Is it natural astigmatism? Or I heard that eye checking fellow called that gland hollow. Whatever it is, I have to and I will cope with it~! *wink*

Good night~!

I am educated.

2010-01-20T21:45:00.003+08:00

I'm at least well-educated and know how to respect people even in my own territory unlike those rude fellows. Well, it's not about an eye for an eye, I'm still educated even you are not.

As a leader, you should know the aim of demo is to everyone in the team to perform themselves and as a senior the reason I contribute was to guide and lead juniors to perform on that day but not showing off my talent. We should bring them up by giving them chances to perform. But what in your mind is to show off yourself. Put yourself as the main character of the whole thing. We are not going to involve in sports day demo until we die. That means we should pass the skills to the next generation and thus they can do the same thing to the coming generation. And I'd remember someone's just ADVISOR in the club at least should respect the president even you are his senior but you didn't. I was clear that I'm not SMKTE tkd club member anymore so what I planned to do was to obey. However, finally I can't stand it and I don't care to be a nagger or even a bitch if you want to say so. We only have about 8 days to train, I COULD tolerate even you wan everything to be perfectly yeng and geng, yet you did the planning DURING training. I thought training session was to train but not to plan, with everyone waiting for you. And what is your feeling if you waiting your son outside the door seeing your son standing there waiting for someone to keng about whatever forever? It's different story if you see your son really doing something that make your waiting worth.

You were a junior. You should know that the only thing to make everything synchronize is to practice all over and over again. Think back what SK did. I know he'd wanna make things better but he used the wrong way. Do you think kept on stopping and scolding in the halfway make changes? Did we ever do ONE SINGLE complete rehearsal so far? ALL stopped in halfway. And the last training on Saturday morning? Please you don't even have that effort. Look back today's training. I purposely late for half an hour, keng gai with white for another half an hour, and you planned the blanks breaking part for another. Ask yourself, is that the way it should be? It's not about the members don't pay 100% attention but leaders not raising up the spirit. Do you think they will lai lai han if you don't?

Everything end here. I'm sick of complaining everything. It doesn't my matter if the demo fails. It's about some people's dignity. Everything will be ended on Saturday and God bless us for everything to be fine. Oh, by the way, board of director has the right to terminate the CEO if they want to, or should I say, if they know.

痛

2010-01-20T09:39:00.002+08:00

虽然以前的比这次更痛

但眼泪还是一样落下

痛

不想再跌了

希望会没事...

I hate everything.

2010-01-20T00:45:00.007+08:00

I hate player.

I hate silent killer.

I hate selfisher.

I hate show-off-er.

I hate lousy leaders.

I hate form 6.

I hate to listen to lamer.

I hate to obey idiot.

I hate the feeling of helpless.

I hate to be lost.

I hate to be lonely when i lost.

I hate to be thrown.

I hate to be thrown by noob.

I hate attending classes.

I hate six hour class.

I hate to be caught in traffic jam.

I hate everyone.

I hate everything.

I hate the whole world.

I hate my life.

.Maybe this is a psychological disease.

Maybe I can use it for psychology assignment.

I forgot where I put my phone.

Even left it uncharged.

I don't know what kinda life is this.

SoonPui smashed me down just now.

Hardly.

I never know that she will do the real thing on simen floor.

She didnt even TRY support me when I fell down.

Ops.

She is a noob.

You guys arranged a noob to smash me.

I HATE YOU.

The only thing made me feel calm and warm today was this message.
shaPo...U're nt alone...
when there is a will,there ll be a way...
so when helpless,find someone to share...
atleast wont feel so tired on it...
i know I'm long gas...like aunty...
anyway,take care...nitez

Thanks dude.

17.1.2010

2010-01-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

Today's training is much more better than previous one and the whole demostration idea has came out but anyway nothing to be proud of because this is the second last training before sports day. But better than nothing la. Tuesday will be the last training and hope everyone will be turning up and everything will be alright.

Attended KMP's annual dinner as CK's partner, replacing MeiXing because she couldnt attend. I made him waited half an hour outside my house because of my poor make up skill. :p This is the first time I had so much of alcohol outside family's supervision and I think that was already near to my maximum. I don't like beers. Yucks!

Finally my Sunday fulled with activities~ It's kinda tiring but still I'm happy~!

Lousy Leader, Lousy Training.

2010-01-16T22:45:00.004+08:00

Today is the second day of free-from-maid aka independence day. I left my house and all the household work to my mom and attended demo training.

I've already know that part of the time will surely be wasted but still I thought i could cope with it with a little bit more of patience because my juniors aka teammate made me fall into them on Friday with their absolutely positive attitude and improving level. However, today's training was an incredibly waste of time. In two hours, we only practiced not more than five times of the first part some more NO ONE of them were perfect because somebody kept on stopping it in the halfway to give comments. Don't you know that we don't even have a blue print of what we want to do in the third and fourth part besides we don't have music yet?

I, myself, admit that I'm not that talented to cope with so many person who not close in such a short while but I'm willing to keep on trying because I believe that practice makes perfect and those other team members are definitely willing to practice until everything is synchronized. YOU, what we have to do is just to follow your speed and so-called 'decorate' what you do in the right time. BUT, did you trained with us as often as we trained ourselves? How can u just keep on blaming us for we cant follow your uncertain beats? Isn't it that you should stop blaming and train the hell up to perfect? We are ultimately lack of time and it is better to be said than done!

I've already asked myself to be more considerate and keep myself calm by making all those stupid jokes. Initially I thought what I should do was just follow what you guys planned because I'm no one in SMKTE taekwondo club anymore, I just want to help and I thought you had already have your plan. But actually you have no plan besides we are short of time but you want everything perfect JUST BY SAYING IT. Now I've even felt embarrassed to give so much of comments like a grandmother and I didn't mean to put you down in front of peoples especially juniors. But did you ever feel ashamed when even juniors voiced out that you were wasting our time? Shouldn't you figured a plan out before training but not during training? You know my patience level and I think myself have already tolerate enough to you. Very frankly, the reason I left was it worth more to spend that two hours to do household work than watching monkey show.

You know what kinda people I am. I don't wear mask in front of true friends some more you guys are my buddy. I want the demo to be successful but what I want more are your own successfulness and mature thinking. Make a change if you feel the same way I feel and you are welcomed to fight for yourself too if you feel that I'm wrong or insulted you.

God bless all of us tomorrow.

惜福

2010-01-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

今天载妈去洗头，是家庭式理发，让我想起老家...

曾经也是这样，小康之家，地方小但一家人很温暖。

百叶窗上面的两排洞口是哥哥姐姐偷藏零食的地方。

那时和姐姐同房，也常像老板娘的儿子们般打来打去，还用bibi打远身战呢。(还每次都是我输=.=) 有时越打越不爽，有时越打越好笑，但不管怎样事后感情总会变更好。好怀念...

现在各自睡都有四年多了，但不代表感情不好哦，我们还是常常谈枕头天的，唯有怕黑的小习惯还改不了。

我明白拥有不是要挥霍而是珍惜，也会常常提醒自己，尤其是欲望又增长的时候，会告诉自己够了，不要再买了，还有自己已经很幸福幸运了，再浪费怕福气会被用完。

但有些人就是不明白，而我也姑且听bff的劝告，试试看放耐心，希望他们有醒觉的一天。

希望现在不是风暴前的宁静。

我也该准备好了。

Dreamland

2010-01-09T20:30:00.004+08:00

The second time looking at this dress. I made myself into dreamland by trying it.

My birthday is coming.

Thank you.

It's Just a Murmur.

2010-01-06T21:25:00.003+08:00

I wonder what means FAMILY.
I wonder why can he behave like he is a boss.
I wonder why cant he become more considerate.
Parents won't bother to give everything to their children but how can the children just keep on taking?
I wonder whether i will kah mm chut one day.
There's a young guy in my house but why 柔弱女子like my mom, my sis and I have to do all the heavy stuffs? Asking what is the guy doing? Erm... Gaming maybe.
People ask me not to be too independant but sometimes I have to.
Don't ask me what I want to tell actually.
It's just a murmur.
I just want to throw rubbish.
Thanks to bff aka rubbish bin.

YV's...

Le Life in Lincoln

Farm Tour

Getting Better.

I want to go home.

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Goey is the Man!!!

The Last Time.

RIP

死亡 · 你害怕吗？

Donna

学妹的信

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House of Leeches.

Ch...Che...Chef!!!

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Aunty??!!!

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没关系 =)

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An Unforgiven Penny.

Faded Love.

微笑人

Journey.You.

Pinky ze Massage Tool! XD XD XD

不屑

我想出走。

A Converation with an Old Friend.

Princess V

台湾风味馆

我为花痴 我为花迷

B Visit! 2

Mama said.

米修

B Visit by Molly

Murmur of the Day.

花心.

坏男人

Skin Pampering.

~Perfect Breakfast~

谋杀·信任

Desperado.

B Visit!

关怀方式

无言

Rabbit's Eyes.

Shallow Eyes

Rebel

Miss Clumsy

Adam and the APPLES.

fragile.

Wa WA Wasabi Game!

Sherlyn = Potato = Eyes!

我为花痴我为花迷